Comebacks are not always easy, especially when they’re after something very difficult- like a deep loss. It takes time; it’s cliche, but it’s true. You want to get back to whatever “it” was; however, it’s not always that easy to know where to start. It is not possible just to jump back in where one left off. Things have changed. You, as a person, have changed. Whatever caused the “getting off track” has altered the timeline and now one must start anew.
One thing I have found during my time away are the things that hold us steady are those things that are ingrained- a part of one’s core- like one’s faith and one’s worldview. When one suffers deep loss faith and worldview are tested. It just depends how solid one’s faith and worldview are as to just how deeply shaken the individual will be. During my journey through deep loss, I found strength and comfort in my faith.
The kind of tests that seem to come for me are invitations to something deeper; something more profound based on themes I am all ready familiar with. Perhaps it could be likened to a call to trust more fully. I’m not always given anything tangible to trust in; for example, when days run together and the monotony feels overwhelming and there’s really no end in sight. I’m being called to trust that this is not forever and change will come- it’s trusting without seeing. Like a child.
You may be wondering, “what does this have to do with Montessori?” There is a spiritual side to Montessori and the beauty of it is Montessori allows the individual to seek the spiritual side of life which is most meaningful to you. I find my meaning and purpose in Jesus Christ. This is the faith that brought me through my deep loss. This is how I am finding my way back- not to the place where I left off- but to yet another new beginning. And this is the message in being “inspired” as in my blog name “Inspired Montessori Living”. It’s the inspirational side I’d like to look at in the next few weeks; to share how I’m being inspired during my comeback and what that looks like in day to day living.
Until next time, peace be with you-
Lorraine
